Things are still very much on the up and I am so happy. I feel so much at peace & finally so calm about everything. Last year when I was so poorly, we didn't know what to do, I thought we had lost a well fought battle and there didn't seem to be any answers. I prayed about it & asked others too aswell. I needed guidance. As a family we did alot of research & networking, my parents went to a Lyme Disease conference in Dublin (still have a unconfirmed diagnosis of lyme) & they found 'The Cowden Protocol' with NutraMedix. I started in July 2012 & it is a miracle in my life. It has changed my life and I am so grateful.
- I am getting amazing grades on my course which I am so happy and proud of.
- Started to do some volunteer work at church, working with the kids and courses. I've learnt I can be relied upon to turn up every week & not let them down because I am too ill & I am loving it.
- I'm so much more independant & confident.
- I am finally thinking about the future and I'm excited to see what that holds - holidays, adventure planning, career etc.
- Bible study & continuing to grow as a Christian brings me so much comfort & hope in this illness. I have made some great friends through the church who are a power of strength for me.
- We have just returned from one week in Puerto Banus in Marbella. I absolutly loved it, to just get away in the sun for abit. It was a gorgeous villa, we just relaxed, tanned, drank, ate & bumped into the cast from 'The Only Way is Essex' everywhere.
- I applied for an actual job last week which is a huge deal for me! I am praying so much that I get an interview. I would love to be able to work one day a week to begin with. I crave having a job of my very own which is mine & I can be independant.
- I can actually make solid plans! I never used to be able to commit to anything in fear of being ill that day. I have plans to go to London soon to see two of my best friends who moved down there.
- My Cockapoos are still a massive part of my rehabilitation, being able to go out with them & take responsibility is so fulfilling. Most people know much those two doggies mean to me. Everyone who is ever ill needs to get a Cockapoo!
Our pool backing onto a golf course - wish I could live there
I know people say "How is it hard work to get better?" I'm thinking are they kidding me.
It takes serious will power & strength to get better from this illness. You need strong people surrounding you who have faith that you will recover & want to help you.
You need to be constantly telling yourself you can do it, eating the right foods, knowing when to push yourself but also knowing when to rest, learning to listen & trust your body, knowing what could set you back, being strong emotionally knowing stress can hit you backwards, being in the right calming environment, yoga/meditation... I could honestly go on forever on things I have to do daily to make sure I stay on the right track. Yeah some days it feels very tedious and I get fed up, but when I hit my goals it's an amazing feeling. Every week I literally achieve something I couldn't do the previous week.
I am writing up some blog posts about the 3 things I feel have the most beneficial aspects we can work on -
1. Nutrition
2. Mind
3. Body
I am writing up some blog posts about the 3 things I feel have the most beneficial aspects we can work on -
1. Nutrition
2. Mind
3. Body
I have a very clear of view of the goals I want to achieve & I am incredibly motivated & determined they are all going to happen.
I know I am not your typical 22 year old but I have worked incredibly hard to be where I am today. Sometimes I do worry too much about what people expect from me, but I'm different & there are complications to overcome before I can catch up with everyone else.
I know I am incredibly blessed but please do not loose hope, this proves that we can fight this illness with the correct mix of things.
Seven months ago I was bed bound, I'd completely lost all hope & was incredibly close to giving up. It took me years to find the right jigsaw puzzle pieces but now the pieces are all fitting together & it is paying off :)
Seven months ago I was bed bound, I'd completely lost all hope & was incredibly close to giving up. It took me years to find the right jigsaw puzzle pieces but now the pieces are all fitting together & it is paying off :)
Lots of love
Bekz xoxo
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